.break.

Da lama x update blog..sory emosi tak stabil sgt2..tak nak lah entry penuh dgn emosi..

maaf aku tak mintak pun kat Tuhan nak rasa macam ni..semua orang tak nak sakit kan?so maaflah kalau kau annoyed tgk aku emotional..i am not asked for it..so kau doakan aku bahagia aku da tak annoyed kan kau lagi..

semua nak happy..macam tu juga aku..everyday i am hoping i can live happly ever after..

Aku nak stop tulis blog buat sementara waktu..ayat emosi aku panjang pun sekarang dah macam useless..aku dah jumpa tempat aku express feeling aku dengan cara lain pula..come vistit me at

http://bittersweetoflife.tumblr.com/

nanti everything ok aku akan teruskan perjuangan dekat blog ni..please pray for my happiness...

saya tinggalkan anda dgn lagu yang penuh menyentuh perasaan jiwa raga sbg seorg perempuan...

lagu ni sangat2 sempurna....

Telah ku siapkan satu daerah paling sunyi

Dalam hati ini untuk kau isi sebagai isteri

Untuk kau penuhi dengan kemuliaan seorang wanita

Untuk kau beri erti dengan kelembutan

Untuk kau hargai dengan kasih sayang

Ku ingin kau jadi wanita mulia

Yang tahu harga budi dan hati

Seorang lelaki bernama suami

Kerana engkau isteri

Ku ingin kau mengerti bahawa hidup ini

Tak semudah yang kita janjikan

Yang kita janjikan

Kerana kau isteriku

p/s: i want my future husband dedicate thz song to me..saya mahu jadi wanita sempurna di mata dia walaupun saya tahu saya tak SEMPURNA utk dia..Amin!

.bila umur 20 thn tiba2 nk tukar cita2 nak jd psychologyst.

Tajuk yang panjang sekali..ini adalah luahan perasaan kata hati aku dan apa yang aku rasa pada hari ini bersamaan khamis bertarikh 24th dec 09 pada pukul 2.55 pm..

Merajuk kejap sebab diri sendiri tak habis-habis nak jaga hati takut sangat terluka lagi..tu yang sampai emotional terlebih...

Kesian orang sekeliling jadi mangsa..tak tahu lah nak buat apa..orang kata jangan layankan sangat hati tu..ikut hati mati kan? tapi Tuhan kadang-kadang kasi petunjuk melalui gerak hati kan? So a bit confused here..naah! its not a big problem pun actually, apa yang penting sekarang move forward and i am trying really hard to forget the past..i mean horror part.

I am teaching my self how to be a positive in mind..masalahnya aku ni kalau bab advise orang laju je mulut ni keluar, tau je apa nak buat kat problem orang tu..tapi bila kena diri sendiri macam terkejal sekejap..hilang arah tak tahu nak buat apa..

Aku memang suka tadah telinga aku dengar masalah orang dan aku akan trying duduk kat 'tempat' dia and feel it and take an action..than fikir apa perlu buat..kadang-kadang aku akan kasi negative word to burn the spirit...tapi orang selalu salah tafsir kata "macam lah dia ni bagus sangat".."macam lah dia ni faham sangat situasi aku".."bajet perfect la minah ni"

I'm juz giving u an advise showing i CARE..sedih juga bila orang fikir niat kita nak menjatuh kan..tak kan lah nak menjatuhkan orang penting dalam hidup kan..gila tak masuk akal..kau tau tak aku sedang hulur tangan tolong kau,mungkin kau tak sedar..tak ape, aku akan tolong selagi mampu..kita kan sesama insan saudara islam kena saling tlg-menolong dan ingat m'ingati..*tak sia-sia mak masuk kan aku kat sekolah agama seksyen 19* ;p

Bila tgk orang dalam keserabutan, kesusahan, atau kesedihan aku cepat sangat simpati..tak kisah lah kau pernah buat jahat kat aku dulu tapi kalau kau jatuh dan dtg cari aku balik..hati aku terbuka luas untuk tolong kau tapi terima balik dan berhubungan macam dulu balik mungkin..mungkin dengan ada sifat macam ni orang bole pijak aku kot..bak kata letto "kau datang dan pergi..oh begitu shj, mungkin ku terima apa adanya.." ceh!

note : tak amek kisah sangat pun susah terlalu amek kisah pun susah.

.frame yang kosong.

I can feel the raindrops
Slowly falling
And they calling for
They keep calling for
My knight in shining armour
Come and save me
Cause I'm drowning in pain

I've been hurt
By his mistakes
So come and take me away
I put him first
I thought he'd stay
But he couldn't weather the storm
So he left me the rain

Over time, pictures fade
All that's left are these empty frames
Sleepless nights, and stormy days
I've got proof that people change
And all that's left are these empty frames
All that's left are these empty...

Can you hear these teardrops
In my pillow?
They keep falling cause
I kept falling for your dozen thorny roses
Now I'm bleeding
And I'm lonely again

Now I'm hurt
It's my mistake
I should have known right away
I put him first
I thought he'd stay
But he couldn't weather the storm
So he left me the rain

Over time, pictures fade
All that's left are these empty frames
Sleepless nights, and stormy days
I've got proof that people change
Long after the smiles all fade away
All this endless pain
All this empty space

Sleepless nights, and stormy days
I've got proof that people change
Over time, pictures fade
And all that's left are these empty frames

Over time, pictures fade
All that's left are these empty frames
Sleepless nights, and stormy days
All that's left are these empty...

Over time, pictures fade
And all that's left are these empty frames
Sleepless nights, and stormy days
I've got proof that people change

All that's left are these empty frames

.fighting.

"Lord, i want to become heartless, there is no use if i have a full of feeling but they did not even cares."

permulaan umur 21 yg mengecewakan

semua mengecewakan.

:(

semua usaha dah buat still hasilnya sama

sedih..

mereka tak faham niat hati

sedih...

menghargai jauh sekali

sedih..

akhir kata

rasa sgt

kecewa teramat

.jalan fikiranmu buat ku ragu.

kau lari jauh sangat susah nak kejar..tercungap2 aku kejar kau..pucat lesi muka aku..tanpa toleh belakang lihat sesaknya aku..at last aku penat dan kau lari makin jauh dan hilang..

terimalah menghapus jejak mu:

.sweet.

setiap pagi kan

dia akan masuk bilik dan cakap

"bangun laaa!"

"bangun mak masak nasi goreng nanti habis"

apa aku buat

senyum kat dia

lepas tu cakap

"ok, pegi tutup pintu"

tak lama lepas tu

dia datang balik

"eeee tdo je keje bangun la! nasi dah habis pun"

aku buat tak tau je..

aku paling muka kt dinding

die tarik badan lepas tu kiss pipi...

tiba-tiba rasa di sayangi di permulaan hari ;)

kalau kamu kamu dan kamu

tak sayang saya tak mengapa

sebab saya ada budak perempuan umur 5 tahun

yang tahu hargai saya dan sayang apa adanya saya

aleesha fariha

sangat kasih sama dia =)

.heartache.

people drain you

even the closest one

they push you away

think you are fool and betrayed

when the heartache speak out

and nobody want to listen

refusing to cure the disease

sad && lonely

:(

.too late.

one day a boy asked his girlfriend to marry him,

the girl gave him a challenge to live a day without her,

only then she'll marry him.

no communication was there for 24 hour,

he did't know that she has only 24 hour to life left coz she's ill,

..................

after 24 hour later

he went to her house holding a ring

he was shocked to know she was dead

she left a letter for him saying

"you did it! you can be without me do it everyday my love...miss you"

.random.

WHO. WAS. YOUR. LAST

1. Person You hung out with:

ahmad eizwal

2. Rode in a car with:

meme umaida

3. Went to the movies with:

meme umaida, asiah mokhtar, syu aziz

4. Went to the mall with:

the girls

5. You talked on the phone to:

aisha

6. Made you laugh:

aleesha

7. Last person you told and/or they told you they Loved you:

ahmad eizwal

W O U L D . Y O U . R A T H E R.

1. Pierce your nose or tounge:

dua2 tak nak dan tak bole due to sensitive skin

2. Be serious or be funny:

be funny!

3. Drink whole or skim milk:

skim milk!

4. Die in a fire or get shot:

get shot

5. Spend time with your parents or enemies:

parents la!

A N S W E R . T R U T H F U L L Y.

1. Do you like anyone:

yes

2. Sun or moon:

moon

3. Winter or Fall:

fall

4. left or right:

right

5. Sunny or rainy:

sunny! i miss sun!

A B O U T . Y O U.

1. What time is it:

10:09 PM

2. First Name:

Nur Farahin

3. Where do you wanna live:

Iskandar Region ;p

4. How many kids do you want:

two (1 boy 1 girl)

5. Do you want to get married:

of course

6. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it:

cut it

7. Have you ever eaten spam:

nah!

8. Favorite ice cream:

double choc ice cream

9. How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet:

zero.da lama x makan cereal!

10. Do you cook:

rarely

11. Current mood:

lonely, depression, sad, neglected

I N . T H E . L A S T . 48 H O U R S . H A V E . Y O U.

1. Kissed some one:

yep

2. Sang:

yep

3. Been hugged:

yep

4. Felt stupid:

yep

5. Missed someone:

:(

6. Danced Crazy:

nop! i wish

7. Gotten your hair cut:

nop!

8. Cried:

yes

. S T U F F .

1. Have you ever been searched by the cops:

ta penah!

2. Do you have a Dog:

haram.

3. When's the last time you've been sledding:

tak pena pun

4. Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?

with someone else.

5. Do you believe in ghosts:

yep.

6. Do you consider yourself creative:

nop! langsung tak.

7 Who did you copy and paste from?

si bijaksana

.tips.

This is what you should do when you strongly love someone but he/she never try to love you strong enough in return :

1 -Limit the amount of time you spend with the person who doesn't love you. If you can, don't see them for a while.

2 -Come to terms with the fact that they don't share your romantic feelings. You need to accept that it's just not meant to be so you can move on with your life.

3 -Try writing a mantra such as "It's time to move on" on a slip of paper and placing it in your jacket pocket. Every time you reach into the pocket, pull out the slip of paper, recite the words in your mind, and put it back into the pocket. This will help reinforce your commitment to getting on with the rest of your life.

4- Stay busy. Take up a new hobby such as painting, skateboarding or playing the drums. Join a sports team or work your frustrations out through exercise

5- Surround yourself with those who do love you. This could be your parents, grandparents, siblings, other friends or even pets

6- Hang around with friends who make you laugh. Chances are, at least one of your friends is brilliant at getting your mind off of the person who's causing you pain.

7- Remind yourself that it would not be any fun to be with someone who didn't feel as strongly about you as you did about them. Think about what love should like and notice how equality plays a big part. You deserve to be treated the way you want to be treated!

8- Take a little time to nurture yourself, whether it's with a good few good books or movies, some extra time with friends or simply getting a bit more sleep.

9- When you're ready, start hanging out with other people you'd consider dating. Give yourself the chance to fall in love again and you undoubtedly will.

10- People who did't appreciate you its ok juz let him/her go because he/she will find their so-called true love but their 'true love' will did the same as he/she did to you. its fact!

and now BIG SMILE please because YOU deserve better!!!

:)

.13 December 2009.

How old are you? 21 years old babeh! lambat betul kau masuk 21..hehe tak pe lah! 21 tahun orang kata dah dapat kunci kebebasan..ouh dari segi apa eh? entah lah! aku harap walaupun badan aku tak sesize umur 21, otak aku lebih dari org umur 40 tahun..eh eh mesti la otak pun 21 tahun..tapi orang kata aku tak matang pun..mungkin la kot tak matang. ;)

Permulaan 21 tahun?? bersama rakan2 dan boyfren dan rakan2 beliau..sungguh manis dapat spend time bersama2 orang penting sementara menunggu detik menjejak kan kaki ku ke umur 21 tahun..lain dari yang lain, selalu 12 tepat duk rumah je,kenangan yang tidak dapat di lupakan..harap2 bukan my last celebration..opss! ape yang kau merepek ni?

Di sini saya mahu mengucapkan terima kasih kepada semua rakan-rakan dan keluarga yang mengingati hari kelahiran saya tak kira di mana jua anda berada..saya amat terharu sekali, wish dekat facebook mengalahkan sms..nampak ada yang saving kredit..hahaha gurau2 je! terima kasih tau ambil la ksih sayang saya ni..nah amek! :)

Kepada hati nur farahin, dah 21 tahun kan? jangan nak ikut pentingkan diri, setiap apa yang berlaku ajak akal sekali bersama2 go trough the situation!

*note : cpt la berlalu, mahu cepat2 tutup pintu 2009..nak buka 2010..craving for changes and new life!

.ouh si A dan B.

A dan B

A suka sama B

B suka sama A

A simpan dalam hati

B simpan dalam jiwa

A tunggu B luah

B nantikan A luah

A rasakan B cinta yang lain

B mahu berbicara

A pergi menjauh

A jumpa si jantung hati

B berkecai hati

Bila boleh A dan B di satukan

mungkin di syurga..

updated.

Okie dgn riangnya hati layout dah change..before ni nampak macam professional sangat..sebab ai ni bukan lah orang yang professional..so tak layak guna apa2 yang so-called professional..so i find yg yg girly2 and childish..;p

Esok bersamaan 10th Dec adalah penentu masa depan aku..hebat bukan? esok lah result kuar oi! kalau aku tengok sambil tersenyum sampai telinga maknanya aku tak yah bersusah payah risau..lepas tu bole fikir nak enjoy dan enjoy! ish2 tak ah! mesti lah buat sesuatu untuk berterima kasih pada DIA kan..

Tapi kalau lihat dengan air mata keluar sebelah kiri dulu maknanya aku kene fikir macam2...pasal register course mesti turun naik jumpa KP, fikir mana nak drop mana nak buat dulu..dan yang paling berat adalah emosi! aduh! tak sanggup!

takut..takut...risau..risau

Kita lihat sahaja esok..hope everything will be just ok! Amin! Amin!

nasihat dari atuk-atuk

Atuk said,

"BE STRONG. Remember, not everything has a HAPPY ENDING, and endings don't mean you have to stop... it's a way of teling us that there is a NEW BEGINNING AHEAD OF US.

You should always be READY for the UNPREDICTABLE, EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED...

It's EASY to FALL, but HARD to GET UP.

But once you're back on track, you will be a BETTER PERSON.

That's the WAY OF LIFE- you don't just LIVE it, you LEARN from it.

p/s: Amalkan selalu, baru hidup boleh berjaya di dunia dan akhirat ;) selamat mencuba!

Feel appreciated

Buat Dato Dzul,

Terima kasih atas penghargaan Anugerah Blog Dewi Dato Dzul.

Saya amat teraharu sehingga mahu mengalirkan air mata darah.

and again Thank you so much!

;)

note: blog i x sehebat blog u. mantop! ;P